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diedeliberately: dissociation (5)

(action) @ the june intense event

[personal profile] diedeliberately 2025-06-14 04:31 pm (UTC)(link)
[Things have become frightening, and this time, Neil is actually afraid. He hadn't meant to get caught outside on his own. He'd heard rumors about another illness, people changing, those crystals beginning to grow where they shouldn't again. Perhaps he hadn't taken the warnings seriously enough.

[He finds himself cornered, crystalline dragonkin pushing him back flat against an alley wall. He can't do anything but cower, pitiful, and shout, desperate:]

H-help! Please help!
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me realizing they've never met in person

[personal profile] diedeliberately 2025-06-15 03:24 am (UTC)(link)
[The leather-winged creature is almost just as terrifying as the creature cornering Neil, but then it becomes human(-looking?), draws its (his?) sword. Neil stays planted behind the creature (person?), still flat against the wall. He tries to breathe quietly, despite it being no secret that he's there. Silently, he thinks to pray, though he's not necessarily convinced God is listening.]
diedeliberately: dissociation (forsythia 128)

there we go

[personal profile] diedeliberately 2025-06-15 09:28 pm (UTC)(link)
[Alucard. Neil only knows him from the voice he shared through their minds, but it's different, seeing him in person. In the right light, he almost looks like an angel. All Neil can do is stare as the creatures are pushed back. He cringes at the word feed, the dragonkin's disembodied arm. It's almost too much to watch, but he can't stop... It doesn't even feel safe to speak. Not until they're gone.]
diedeliberately: (forsythia 124)

[personal profile] diedeliberately 2025-06-17 10:13 pm (UTC)(link)
Ye-- y--

[He needs to breathe, swallow down whatever spittle is stuck in his throat, make his lips move. His heart races in his chest, knees weak. He nods his head, laughing purely on nerves; it turns into a whimper.]

I-I'm okay. I... We've met, you and I. Thank- Thank you...
diedeliberately: crying (forsythia 106)

[personal profile] diedeliberately 2025-06-19 09:31 pm (UTC)(link)
[Neil nods, mouth dry, tongue too large for it. It feels difficult to talk, but he must.]

Neil. Neil Perry.

[Does he remember? He says it like a 'thank you'. He'll say that too.]

Yes. Please. And thank you. [Desperately earnest.]

I'm not a fighter, I... I've had no idea at all what to do.
diedeliberately: (forsythia 100)

[personal profile] diedeliberately 2025-06-21 03:25 am (UTC)(link)
[Neil laughs, but it sounds like a sob. He shakes his head.]

I-I can't thank you enough. I didn't mean to get caught out-- caught out...in it. In this.
diedeliberately: crying (forsythia 111)

[personal profile] diedeliberately 2025-06-21 03:52 am (UTC)(link)
[Neil's vision burns and blurs. He has to thumb tears away, embarrassed, but more so:]

I'm afraid. You're so brave, but not me. Not this.
diedeliberately: crying (forsythia 109)

[personal profile] diedeliberately 2025-06-21 04:00 am (UTC)(link)
[Neil is quiet for a moment, eyes on Alucard, terrified to look anywhere else. He nods his head, blinking more tears away.]

You're right. Still, I... I just wish I could help.

There are some I know, even, who now... Now, they're... [He gestures usually, sucking in a sharp breath.]
diedeliberately: dissociation (5)

[personal profile] diedeliberately 2025-06-21 04:21 am (UTC)(link)
[Neil nods, letting out another sob-like laugh. He tries wiping tears from his eyes but only more follow.]

I don't want them to die. I don't want anyone to get hurt.
diedeliberately: dissociation (forsythia 128)

[personal profile] diedeliberately 2025-06-21 04:29 am (UTC)(link)
[Neil's next sob sounds nothing like a laugh. He's never experienced grief, only caused it. His knees feel weak, but somehow, he keeps himself upright. He tries to slap the tears off his cheeks, shake his head through them.]

I shouldn't be crying like this. I'm sorry. I'm sorry...
diedeliberately: (forsythia 33)

[personal profile] diedeliberately 2025-06-21 04:43 am (UTC)(link)
[It's more a grounding touch than he's used to from adults like Alucard - or, perhaps, adults that are nothing like him. The words remind him of something Mr. Keating might say, and that just makes him want to cry harder. He still tries to suck it up, look brave, but...it's not very convincing.]

What do you mean...? What people fight for...?
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[personal profile] diedeliberately 2025-06-21 04:49 am (UTC)(link)
[Neil's lip trembles. He nods his head, brown eyes held in Alucard's gaze.]

You're like a superhero...

Thank you.

[There's a brief glance around. He seems to remember his circumstances, arms wrapping around himself in a tight self-hug.]

I...I'm just a few minutes walk down that way. [A shaky point with his hand.]

Could we-- Would...you still walk me home? Please...
diedeliberately: (forsythia 21)

[personal profile] diedeliberately 2025-06-21 05:14 am (UTC)(link)
[It feels a bit strange to make simple conversation as they walk, but Neil finds himself clarifying anyway.]

Just like any hero, but with...[He tries to think of how to word this.]...extraordinary abilities.

They're only fictional where I come from. Really, I just meant...someone who saves others like that. It's noble...

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ough...wrapped...

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